Be content with your weakness.
Life can be a masquerade sometimes. The world forces us to be like others and hide what we indeed are. We wear masks to hide our flaws. There's a lot of talk about being your authentic self. The term seems odd to me as I thought being yourself was being authentic. However, I see a world where we can only show parts of ourselves, as accurate as those parts may be. In business there, a lot of talk of impression management. While they can last a long time, impressions are only assumptions people make about each other.
The pressure of maintaining that image becomes too much for those unprepared to handle it. God does not look to appearances but to who we indeed are. This can be scary and liberating the same. If you're used to wearing the mask, it can be hard to be honest, and vulnerable. You might say, well, God knows why do I have to tell him? God wants to hear it from you. One cannot become a believer or receive forgiveness until one confesses the sin. He also wants to know you're serious. It is liberating because we don't have to keep up appearances. In his grace, he takes as-is and makes us into something different. In fact, God uses imperfect people to accomplish his purpose.
Peter, James, and John, three of Jesus' original disciples, were fishermen. Because of their profession, they were not significant. Peter was fearful and brash. James and John were power-hungry. Matthew, the author of the Gospel of Matthew, was a tax collector. If you think you hate the IRS, the Jewish tax collectors were even more despised. They were considered traitors for working for the occupying Romans. In addition, they often stole money. You don't need superior ability or intelligence to be a victorious Christian. You only need just a desire and commitment to follow Jesus. We tend to hold up the Apostle Paul as one of the great pillars of the faith for his deep devotion. However, he never viewed himself that way because he never forgot his days as Saul, the persecutor of Christians. God turned used Paul's zeal to spread the gospel to most of the known world at that time. Though he was educated, he never used it to his advantage. He realized the futility of rational arguments when trying to talk to the Greeks too steeped in their own philosophy to understand Jesus.
In God's way of thinking, true knowledge is heart knowledge. You feel him so deep in your soul, you are motivated to love him and obey him. Paul reminds the Corinthians of the following. Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were noble birth. But God chose the world's foolish things to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are so that no one may boast before him. Because of him, you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness, and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.."When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power so that your faith might not rest on man's wisdom, but on God's power. ( 1 Corinthian 1:26- 2:5NIV )
So what kind of mask are you wearing? What are you afraid to reveal? Do you feel left behind because everyone you know has done more? God knows it and wants to heal you. Weaknesses are tools to help others see that they are not alone. I know from experience that it will be hard and may take a lot of work. However, when y God knows it and wants to heal you. Weaknesses are tools to help others see that they are not alone. I know from experience that it will be hard and may take a lot of work, especially to be vulnerable in front of others. However, when you are not striving, you will find real peace and joy because you are yourself.
Updated May 30, 2021